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  • Jeremy,

    I want to start by giving you a warm welcome into the Subconscious Awakening Experience. Your soul has been nudging you to expand, to grow, to shift into a state of awareness that is in alignment with your soul…and this has brought you to this moment right here. You are here because you are ready. You are here because you have been evolving deeply over the past few years. Waking up to new truths, shedding what is no longer serving you and now…you’re ready for even more. More magnetism. More alignment. More remembering.

    For the next 3 months, we are going to go on a journey together. A journey of remembering your soul essence. We are going to peal back the layers of subconscious limitations to reveal who it is you have been this entire time. We are going to explore every aspect of your life where you are feeling like there is an edge, a pattern, or point of suffering. We are going to cut through any surface level causes and go straight to the root, the subconscious. It is going to be powerful, profound and life altering.

    Remember as we dive into this, this work is not about fixing you. You are not broken. You do not need to be fixed.

    It is quite the opposite.

    This is about returning to your wholeness. Releasing what no longer aligns. Reclaiming your power and remembering who the f you have always been. A radiant, limitless being.

    I am honored and excited to begin this journey with you. Please know that this is a safe space to let go, feel, and embrace the human that you are. I will hold you with the deepest levels of compassion through all darkness, emotion and forgetting. This is a space to let go and BE. The shadows are just as sacred as the light. They are our doorways to remembering. So know the full spectrum of your being is welcomed here.

    This is a deeply personalized experience, and we will journey together through what is becoming active in your heart. Each layer that arises, whether it’s resistance, old conditioning, or patterns ready to be released, will be honored and explored.

    This is not a one-size-fits-all process. Your soul knows exactly what is ready to shift, and my role is to support, guide, and illuminate the path as you step into deeper alignment with your truth.

    This page right here is your home base where you will find all session recordings, notes from me, and any suggested integrations. I will always text you when I update your home base.

    Please feel free to always reach out to me via text or voice note. I am here with you throughout this entire path. I will always answer within 24hrs. My number is 631-456-1040

    Time to remember. Prepare for take off.

    With love and gratitude,

    Nikki

  • In our first session we’ll set the ground work for the journey we are about to go on together. I will share with you my process and what you can expect from this path.

    In this session we are going to be diving into the intuitive nudge that has guided you to this moment. We are going to dive into the desires that are coming alive in your heart as well as where it is you are desiring to experience more expansion in your life.

    Spend some time tapping into your heart and feeling into the above. You can also journal this out as well if you are feeling called. If you do not have clarity, no worries. We are going to dive into this even deeper together.

SESSION #1: THE KICKOFF & THE VISION REVEALED

  • Jeremy, this session was the starting point of a powerful journey of subconscious awakening and revealing the fullest expression of your SOUL ESSENCE!!!

    In this session we laid the groundwork for the container—what to expect, how we’ll navigate the next three months, and the energetic shifts already taking place as you enter this work.

    What We Covered in This Session

    ✨ Reflecting on Recent Energetic Shifts – You shared about your visit home and the profound difference in how you showed up—with openness, without expectations, and with a new level of emotional neutrality. The experience felt cleaner, freer of past resentment, and you observed old patterns in your family without judgment. This was an internal shift reflecting outward, showing how your healing work is already creating change. What a beautiful reflection to see how your mom pulled in a bit closer during your goodbye. This is such a beautiful representation of the shifts you are making. So amazing.

    ✨ Releasing the Savior Complex & Moving into True Compassion – We explored the balance between offering presence and support versus feeling the need to "save" others. You recognized how the energy of trying to save someone can sometimes send the unintentional message that something is wrong with them. This realization deepened your understanding of how real transformation happens through embodiment, not force. Instead of fixing, you are now shifting into being a lighthouse—a steady, grounded presence that others can feel and be inspired by.

    ✨ Trusting & Surrendering into the Unknown – You spoke about shifting your approach to change. Instead of overplanning or predicting outcomes, you’re choosing to hold intention without attachment and allow things to unfold. This is a huge energetic shift that will open you up to synchronicities, effortless alignment, and divine timing.

    ✨ Guided Journey: Connecting with Past & Future Selves – In the meditation, you revisited key turning points in your life—one of the most powerful being your decision to step into dance, despite fear. You recognized how that single choice acted as a catalyst for bigger leaps, including leaving your job and stepping into the unknown. Looking toward your future, you saw a vision of celebration, a book, success, and leadership—the full embodiment of your purpose!!!! (THIS IS HUGE)

    Setting the Stage for What’s to Come…

    At the end of the session, a powerful subconscious pattern surfaced: the belief that confidence and success could be perceived as arrogance.

    Your soul is inviting you into a new frequency—one of full self-expression, ownership, and confidence. There is an energy of claiming YOU that is ready to be activated, a deeper level of certainty in your voice, your presence, and your impact.

    The vision you saw—celebrating your book, fully embracing your purpose, standing in your truth—was not random. It was a glimpse into the evolution your soul is guiding you toward. That image is a reflection of who you are becoming, the embodiment of your highest expression.

    We will begin this journey by looking at the codes that are “blocking” this light of self expression and CLAIMING of self.

    This is where your soul is inviting you into your first phase of subconscious awakening…GET EXCITED! We are about to release outdated codes and enter into a completely new frequency of being.

  • Journaling Prompts for Jeremy: Claiming Your Vision, Path & Power

    Jeremy, your soul is calling you forward into the full embodiment of your vision, purpose, and power. I can feel this energy so alive within you. I want you to spend some time tapping into the frequency of your future self—the version of you who has fully stepped into the path you are meant to walk.

    Create a space for yourself to drop in. Light a candle, play some relaxing meditation music, close your eyes, and take a few deep breaths. Allow yourself to fully connect with the vision that came through in our session—the moment of celebrating your book, owning your voice, and walking this path with deep confidence and trust.

    Please write your reflections in your journal, and we will discuss them in our next session.

    After today’s session, there is an energy of claiming your vision, your path, and the power that already exists within you.

    Spend a moment feeling into this reality. You are holding a book that you wrote that is a full representation of your purpose, mission and gifts you are here to share with the collective. You have being that you love surrounding you and celebrating your success. Close your eyes and visualize yourself fully in this moment. When you are done visualizing and feeling into this, take your journal and answer the following prompts:

    • Describe this reality.

    • How do you feel in this reality?

    • What state of being are you tapped into (thoughts and beliefs)?

    • What level of self trust is present? How do you move through life and how do you take action?

    • How does this version of you interact with the world and others?

    • How do they attract people and opportunities to them?

    • What makes them so magnetic?

    • Describe a bit of the power and certainty they feel.

    Now, write out what this reality felt like, looked like, and how you moved through it.

    Reflective Journaling:

    1. What does it feel like to fully claim my path and vision?

    2. What fears or hesitations am I releasing as I step into this next level of me?

    3. What is the deeper truth about who I am that I am ready to own?

    4. What feels most alive and ready to be expressed within me right now?

    Let this be a moment of deep integration and embodiment. The vision is real. It is already done. Now this is the fun part of releasing who it is you are not so you can naturally align with that reality.

    We’ll explore this more in our next session. I can’t wait to hear what comes through.

SESSION #2: revealing soul wholeness

  • Ahh Jeremy, this session was so powerful. I want to reflect some of the key moments back to you so you can continue anchoring into these truths.

    Your Big Remembering:
    You’re not here to prove anything. Your energy is the impact.
    We peeled back that old subconscious belief that said, “I need to prove myself in order to be accepted.” And beneath that? The belief that there must be something wrong with you if you’re not seen, liked, or validated. That belief helped you stay safe as a kid — it was brilliant and protective — but it’s not who you are anymore.

    What’s true now:
    There is nothing wrong with you.
    You are whole, worthy, powerful… right now. Not once the offer’s perfect, not once the money comes in — now.
    And that shift opens up an entirely new way of creating, showing up, and moving through your mission.

    Core themes we explored:

    • You’ve been carrying an old belief that you need to be liked, understood, or deliver a result to feel safe.

    • That’s directly linked to your childhood — where being agreeable helped protect you from unpredictable reactions at home.

    • Those adaptations (like reading energy, people-pleasing, staying in tune with others) were brilliant — and now we’re reclaiming them as gifts to be used from a grounded, authentic place.

    • You’re learning to lead from a different frequency — one of authentic confidence. Quiet, grounded, magnetic.

    The business tie-in:
    You shared that creating your offers has felt like a mental maze — like there’s a pressure to get it exactly right or else you’ll burn bridges, fail, or be misunderstood.
    But now, you’re seeing how this pattern ties back to that old survival code.
    Instead of creating from fear or pressure, you’re choosing to create from authenticity and trust.
    You are not here to convince or convert. The people who are meant for your work will feel it.

    New energy you’re anchoring in:

    • My work is not a test — it’s an extension of my essence.

    • Being misunderstood isn’t a threat to my safety — it’s often a sign I’m on the right track.

    • I don’t need to speak to everyone — I’m here for the ones who already feel it.

    • I can trust that my energy plants seeds. Even when results aren’t immediate, transformation is happening.

    Integration reminders:

    • Keep noticing when the “prove it” or “be liked” part gets activated. That’s a doorway.

    • Offer that part love instead of judgment. Let it know: we’re safe now.

    • Let your next offer be simple and true. What feels exciting to you? Start there.

    • Keep connecting with the version of you who already knows his power. That version lives in your heart, not your head.

    You’re doing such profound work — and the way you show up to these sessions, open, reflective, and ready to go deep, shows me how committed you are to this shift. So proud of you. Let it all unfold in its divine timing — you’re right where you’re meant to be.

    More to come next session (and I’ll drop in your Human Design details in the coming days)


    Sending love,
    Nikki

  • Human Deisgn is more than a chart — it's a map of your energy, your soul's journey, and your path to alignment. In this guide, I'm walking you through each element of your Human Design so you not only understand what it means, but how it connects to what you're currently navigating and what you're here to become.

    1. What Is Human Design?

    Human Design is an energetic system that combines ancient wisdom (astrology, I Ching, Kabbalah, and the chakra system) with modern science (quantum physics and genetics). It gives you a personalized map showing how your energy operates, how you're meant to make decisions, and how to live in alignment with who you truly are.

    Your chart is a sacred key to:

    • Understanding how you're wired to move through the world

    • Releasing conditioning that blocks your power

    • Unlocking your innate gifts, purpose, and timing

    2. Energy Type: Manifesting Generator

    There are 5 types in Human Design, and your type describes your energetic foundation and how you're designed to interact with life.

    Manifesting Generators are multi-passionate powerhouses. You're here to move fast, follow what lights you up, and skip steps when it feels aligned. You're not linear — you're quantum. Your energy works best when you're doing things that feel exciting and alive.

    Your Strategy: Wait to respond. That means instead of chasing ideas or initiating from the mind, you wait for life to give you something to respond to (an opportunity, an invite, a moment). Then your body knows if it's a yes or no.

    3. Inner Authority: Emotional (Solar Plexus)

    Your authority is how you make decisions. For you, it's emotional, which means clarity never comes in the moment. You ride emotional waves.

    Your Truth Emerges Over Time. You need to give yourself space to feel the full wave before making big decisions. Avoid saying yes when you're at an emotional high or no when you're in a low.

    Aligned Decision-Making for You:

    • Sleep on it

    • Talk it out or journal to process

    • Wait until you feel emotionally neutral

    Session Reflection: You shared fears around being misunderstood or judged. These reactions are often intensified by the emotional wave. Learning to ride the wave without attaching to every emotion is your superpower. Your depth of feeling is a gift when used wisely.

    4. Profile: 4/6 – The Regal Authority Figure

    Your profile describes your personality, how you learn, and how others see you. It’s one of the most important pieces of your chart.

    Line 4: The Opportunist – Your network is everything. Your path unfolds through people. Trust your connections. You don't need a massive audience; you need aligned community.

    Line 6: The Role Model – You're here to embody wisdom. You go through 3 phases of life:

    • 0–30: Trial and error (learning through experience)

    • 30–50: Integration (watching, observing, refining)

    • 50+: Embodied leadership (living as the example)

    Session Reflection: You're in the integration phase now. You’re refining your voice, stepping back to observe what works, and healing old wounds so you can lead from true authority. The self-judgment you're feeling? It’s part of the transition. You're becoming the one who leads from lived experience.

    5. Incarnation Cross: Right Angle Cross of Rulership (45/26 | 22/47)

    This is your life theme — what your soul came here to experience, embody, and offer the world.

    Your Cross is about:

    • Leadership through influence and voice

    • Empowering others by speaking truth

    • Balancing compassion with power

    • Sharing insights gained through emotional depth and experience

    You're here to lead, but not through control. You rule through resonance. Your power is in your presence, your integrity, and your ability to speak from the heart.

    Session Reflection: You shared that your work sometimes feels like a test of your worth. This Cross reminds you: your value is inherent. You lead by being, not by performing. You don’t need everyone to get it. You need to stand in truth.

    6. Key Shadows + Gifts Being Activated

    Your Human Design isn’t just about light — it's about transmuting shadow into power. The patterns you’re facing now are activating specific gifts:

    Shadow → Gift Activations

    1. When you feel the need to prove yourself (Gift 26)
    That inner feeling of “I need to be liked, validated, or seen to feel safe or successful” — I know it runs deep. But that’s not your truth. That’s an old survival pattern.

    → What’s actually being activated is your Gift of Influence & Integrity.
    When you’re rooted in your own self-worth, your communication becomes magnetic. You influence others not by trying harder, but by speaking from truth. That’s when people really feel you — not because you’re performing, but because you believe in what you’re saying.

    2. When you fear being misunderstood (Gift 22)
    That story of “If they don’t get it, I’ve failed” — it’s just the ego trying to keep you safe. But you’re not here to be understood by everyone.

    → What’s being activated is your Gift of Grace & Emotional Presence.
    You don’t even need to explain yourself all the time — your emotional depth is the transmission. When you stop trying to be understood and just let your frequency speak, you create a ripple that people feel. That’s your power.

    3. When your mind spirals into overthinking (Gift 47 / 64)
    The pressure to figure it all out perfectly before you move? That’s not your path. That’s just the mind trying to run the show.

    → What’s actually rising is your Gift of Insight (47) and Vision (64).
    You’re meant to receive clarity through space, rest, and inner stillness. You see things others miss. You’re designed to access deep intuitive guidance — but only when you stop forcing the answers and allow them to land.

    4. When you feel attached to outcomes (Gift 30)
    That voice that says, “If this doesn’t succeed, it means something about me” — that’s the old way. That’s the grip.

    → What’s being activated is your Gift of Divine Desire & Passion.
    You’re meant to feel. Your desires are sacred. When you let them move through you without needing to control the outcome, they become a creative fire that leads you into your purpose. That’s the frequency that calls in what’s meant for you.

    All of these patterns you’re meeting right now aren’t blocks — they’re initiations. Each one is waking up a gift. You don’t need to fix or force anything — just keep meeting it with awareness and love. The more you trust this process, the more your true power comes online.

    7. Embodiment Reminders

    • Your energy is magnetic when you’re doing what lights you up

    • You are never meant to prove your worth — your truth is enough

    • Emotions are sacred guides, not truths to react from

    • Your path unfolds through people — nurture relationships

    • You are in a powerful phase of refinement — let it be messy and sacred

    • You are not here to reach everyone — you're here to reach the ones who are ready

    • Your presence alone is transformational

    You are a leader of the new paradigm — where power comes from embodiment, not force. You are right on time and you are aligning with the exact mission and purpose you came here to complete.

    The alignment is REAL!!!

SESSION #3: “I AM NOT HERE TO SAVE OTHERS”

  • Key Takeaways

    • We explored the deeper pattern of needing to prove yourself in order to feel worthy—whether that’s in relationships, your purpose, or showing up in your work. That pattern says: “If I do enough, then I’ll be enough.”
      But we’re dissolving that story. And you're starting to really feel that your worth is inherent, not earned.

    • The experience with Rebecca wasn’t random, and it wasn’t a failure. It was a soul contract—a catalyst for deep remembering. That connection lit up your power. It helped you leap. It served its purpose.

    • The truth you’re learning now: you can support and love others without carrying the burden of “saving” them. You are not responsible for other people’s soul journeys—only for showing up in your wholeness.

    The Visualization – Meeting the Part That Couldn’t Let Go

    We dropped into a guided experience where you connected with the part of you that was struggling to fully let go of the relationship.
    This version of you was still confused, holding pain, wondering:

    • “Did I mess this up?”

    • “Was I not enough?”

    • “Was I just making this all up?”

    And instead of forcing him to let go, you listened. You gave him space to tell his story.
    Then, from your higher awareness, you saw clearly: this version of you was looking through a narrow lens—one shaded by the belief that it was his job to make things work. That if he was good enough, it would’ve turned out differently.

    And yet... you were able to show him the truth.
    That he did show up.
    That he was open.
    That his heart was in it, fully.
    And that’s enough. More than enough.

    You offered him love and presence. You took the glasses off. And you integrated that part back into you with compassion.

    This is what healing looks like. Not rejection, not pushing away—but merging with the parts of ourselves that just want to be reminded of our truth.

    A Foundational Soul Lesson

    • You are here to serve, not to save.

    • Your only job is to show up in your essence and power—not to be responsible for someone else’s outcome.

    • This realization will anchor you deeply as you start offering your work in the world. You get to show up fully, and trust that it’s enough.

    Let’s keep integrating this next time through some body-based work so you can feel this truth not just in your mind, but in your nervous system too—especially as you start stepping into more visibility and client work.


    So honored to be in this journey with you.

    – Nikki

SESSION #4: unlocking “I get to” energy

  • Jeremy, this session was aquantum upgrade in how you relate to your inner world, your mission, and your presence.

    You’re no longer performing life…you’re beginning to embody it. One of the biggest themes that emerged was the shift from needing to be right or perform a certain way… into trusting your natural presence and energetic safety. You’re releasing the “Overwatch” part of you, that vigilant part always scanning for danger and allowing space for a deeper trust to lead. This is not just conceptual anymore. You’re living the experiential truth that you don’t need to perform in order to be worthy or safe.

    We explored how detaching from outcomes (especially in business) allows you to drop into authentic connection not because you have to, but because you want to.

    Sales calls shifted from pressure and performance to an opportunity for connection, presence, and being of service. When you release the “shoulds” and “need tos,” your soul has space to guide you—and your true magnetism emerges.

    Another powerful realization was that you already carry a gift that helps people feel safe in your presence. You don’t need to prove anything for that to land. Your nervous system regulates others just by you being fully you.

    You’re rewriting the script of what it means to build a business. From proving to playing. From controlling to creating. From “I should” to “I get to.” From surviving to serving as your truest self.

    Let this next chapter be led by trust, not tension. And remember: your alignment is the message. The more you live it, the more effortlessly it flows through everything you do.

  • Jeremy, I’m sharing your Human Design gifts with you because it is beautiful to see the fullness of what makes you, YOU. Every trait, even the ones that feel hard, messy, or like something’s wrong, is actually part of your design. It’s not a flaw, it’s an invitation. The shadow isn’t bad, it’s just a place where the light hasn’t fully landed yet. When you bring awareness to it, you get to reclaim it as a gift. That’s what makes you powerful. That’s what makes you you. And the more you understand how you’re wired, the more you can work with your energy instead of against it and that’s where things really start to unlock.

    Here’s something really important to remember about your Human Design gifts:

    Every single one of them contains a spectrum… a shadow, a gift, and even a higher essence or siddhi. None of the shadows mean you're doing something “wrong”, they simply indicate that fear, control, or programming might be filtering the energy of the gift. When you bring awareness to that, and meet it with love, the shadow naturally begins to alchemize.

    So, when fear leads the way, these gifts express as contraction. Doubt, urgency, control, pressure. But when love and trust lead the way, they express as clarity, connection, creativity, and influence. The energy underneath doesn’t change, you simply change how it's being expressed.

    Let’s walk through your gifts through that lens:

    ✨ YOUR CORE GIFTS (expanded with depth & spectrum insight)

    Gate 4 – The Gift of Mental Clarity

    • Shadow: Overanalyzing, trying to “solve” life, needing certainty.

    • Gift: Deep logic and insight into how systems and beliefs work. You bring clarity when others are confused—not by force, but through trust in timing.
      → When fear runs the show: You obsess over getting the right answer.
      → When love leads: You relax into knowing that truth reveals itself in divine timing.

    Gate 6 – The Gift of Emotional Clarity & Boundaries

    • Shadow: Avoiding emotional intimacy or triggering conflict.

    • Gift: You’re here to manage emotional space—you know when to engage and when to protect your field.
      → Fear causes withdrawal or shutting down.
      → Love allows you to open with discernment, creating safety for true connection.

    Gate 8 – The Gift of Authentic Expression

    • Shadow: Trying to stand out or be different for approval.

    • Gift: You naturally inspire others just by being fully yourself. Your uniqueness isn't something you try to prove—it just is.
      → Fear says, “I’m not special enough.”
      → Love says, “My presence is the inspiration.”

    Gate 11 – The Gift of Ideation

    • Shadow: Overwhelm from too many thoughts or fantasies.

    • Gift: You carry visions that uplift and inspire. Your gift is in offering new perspectives, especially when grounded in your intuition.
      → Fear clutters your field with distraction.
      → Love lets ideas land and flow through you like stardust.

    Gate 12 – The Gift of Divine Timing in Communication

    • Shadow: Insecurity, silence, or emotionally reactive speech.

    • Gift: When you're emotionally clear, your words hit with poetic impact. You speak to souls, not minds.
      → Fear makes you afraid to speak.
      → Love guides your timing and tone into pure resonance.

    Gate 14 – The Gift of Abundant Energy

    • Shadow: Pouring energy into misaligned work, overworking.

    • Gift: You thrive when you're aligned. When you're lit up, you energize everyone around you. You attract prosperity by saying yes to what lights you up.
      → Fear drains your energy through obligation.
      → Love directs your energy toward what feels expansive.

    Gate 22 – The Gift of Grace

    • Shadow: Moodiness, emotional instability.

    • Gift: You transmit beauty, charisma, and softness when you’re aligned. This is a deeply magnetic energy when led by love.
      → Fear pulls you into inner emotional storms.
      → Love turns your emotional waves into art and healing.

    Gate 26 – The Gift of Persuasion

    • Shadow: Manipulation, exaggeration, trying to "win" others.

    • Gift: You are a master of communication when aligned. You sell from truth, not performance. This is your sacred sales gift.
      → Fear tries to convince.
      → Love shares with impact, integrity, and authenticity.

    Gate 27 – The Gift of Nourishment

    • Shadow: Overgiving, self-neglect.

    • Gift: You know how to support others in their well-being while holding strong self-respect.
      → Fear sacrifices your energy.
      → Love says: “I can give from overflow, not depletion.”

    Gate 29 – The Gift of Devotion

    • Shadow: Saying yes to too much, not knowing when to quit.

    • Gift: You’re deeply powerful when you fully commit to what’s aligned. Your “yes” is sacred.
      → Fear commits out of guilt.
      → Love commits from soul fire.

    Gate 30 – The Gift of Passion

    • Shadow: Emotional chaos, clinging to outcomes.

    • Gift: You feel desire deeply and teach others to honor their longing without attachment.
      → Fear says: “If I don’t get it, I’ll suffer.”
      → Love says: “Desire is divine, and I trust the unfolding.”

    Gate 32 – The Gift of Intuition for What Lasts

    • Shadow: Fear of failure, resisting growth.

    • Gift: You instinctively know what has long-term value and what is worth building.
      → Fear avoids risk.
      → Love follows what’s evolutionarily right.

    Gate 37 – The Gift of Emotional Bonding

    • Shadow: People-pleasing, emotional shutdown.

    • Gift: You bring harmony into groups and create emotional trust in teams, families, or communities.
      → Fear says: “I have to keep the peace at all costs.”
      → Love holds space for real, honest connection.

    Gate 39 – The Gift of Provocation for Awakening

    • Shadow: Pushing buttons, triggering without purpose.

    • Gift: You stir transformation. Your presence activates others to go deeper—especially emotionally.
      → Fear pokes out of defense.
      → Love provokes truth for evolution.

    Gate 43 – The Gift of Inner Knowing

    • Shadow: Feeling misunderstood or needing to explain.

    • Gift: You’re a channel for pure genius. You just know things. It’s okay if no one else gets it at first.
      → Fear hides or tries to prove.
      → Love trusts your insights and shares when ready.

    Gate 45 – The Gift of Leadership (✨Your Core Gift)

    • Shadow: Control, hierarchy, hoarding power.

    • Gift: You’re here to lead through generosity. You naturally take the mic, but in service of community—not ego.
      → Fear needs to dominate.
      → Love leads to uplift and empower.

    Gate 47 – The Gift of Realization

    • Shadow: Mental pressure, self-doubt, confusion.

    • Gift: You alchemize chaos into clarity. You help people find meaning in their pain.
      → Fear panics in uncertainty.
      → Love sits in the unknown until the light breaks through.

    Gate 49 – The Gift of Revolution

    • Shadow: Harsh reactivity, cutting others out.

    • Gift: You uphold truth and fairness. You are a voice for emotional integrity and change.
      → Fear draws harsh lines.
      → Love brings clear, kind boundaries.

    Gate 57 – The Gift of Intuitive Clarity

    • Shadow: Anxiety, fear of the future.

    • Gift: You have instantaneous knowing. It often whispers—so you must slow down and listen.
      → Fear rushes.
      → Love waits for the subtle whisper.

    Gate 59 – The Gift of Intimacy

    • Shadow: Disconnection, unclear boundaries.

    • Gift: You open hearts. You break down walls with your energy, and people feel safe to be real around you.
      → Fear avoids closeness.
      → Love creates emotional safety.

    Gate 60 – The Gift of Creative Pressure

    • Shadow: Feeling blocked or limited.

    • Gift: You use limitations as a creative spark. You build the bridge between inspiration and grounded action.
      → Fear resists constraints.
      → Love says: “Let’s innovate within what is.”

    Gate 64 – The Gift of Imagination

    • Shadow: Overthinking, mental fog.

    • Gift: You carry the big picture—your dreams hold wisdom for the future.
      → Fear spins in uncertainty.
      → Love allows visions to settle and form.

    Your Life Theme: Right Angle Cross of Rulership (45/26 | 22/47)

    You came here to lead—not from dominance or force, but through emotional clarity, aligned communication, and service to the collective. This life theme is about using your voice, your presence, and your heart to create real change.

    Gate 45 gives you a natural ability to lead, share, and guide others with purpose and generosity.
    Gate 26 amplifies your gift of influence—you have a way with words that can move people, especially when you’re aligned with your truth.
    Gate 22 brings emotional depth and grace. You don’t just speak—you transmit. Your presence alone softens people and opens hearts.
    Gate 47 helps you turn confusion into clarity. You can take complex experiences—yours or others’—and pull out the gold.

    At your core, you’re here to be a benevolent, emotionally intelligent leader. Someone who guides through grounded power, authentic expression, and heart-led wisdom. You lead when you speak from truth. You influence when you embody presence. You serve when you trust the design of who you already are.

SESSION #5: Unraveling the Pass/Fail Program

  • Jeremy,

    I am in awe of the awareness, compassion, and self healing that you are tapping into within your journey. The way you’re showing up to this work with such sincerity, curiosity, and compassion is BEYOND powerful. You’re not just talking about healing, you’re living it. You’re embodying it.

    You uncovered so much this week. What started as resistance around doing your taxes became a portal into something deeper…

    a part of you that still held fear around making a mistake. It wasn’t about the taxes. It was about an old subconscious belief that life is a pass/fail test, and that one wrong move could mean something about your worth.

    But instead of pushing that away, you listened. You held space for the part of you that felt scared and confused. That choice, to stay present and not override, is such a powerful act of self-leadership.

    We decoded a core belief here:
    The ego was operating from a program that said: “If I mess this up, it proves I’m incompetent—and that makes me unsafe.”

    This created pressure and procrastination, not as sabotage, but as protection. A way of avoiding a perceived fatal mistake that the ego equated with failure, rejection, or danger.

    But what you did in this session was bring awareness to that code, sit with the fear, and gently ask it what it needed. You invited it forward and let it be seen. You didn’t try to fix it… you listened. And in that space, the belief began to shift into something more true. A HIGHER perspective. A soul perspective.

    “My worth is not tied to performance. My safety is not dependent on getting it right. There is no pass or fail. Only learning, expansion, and deeper connection to my soul.”

    This experience with your taxes was a divine mirror. A moment showing you a pattern that is ready to dissolve. And you did the work. You turned toward it with love. And you alchemized it.

    Then the way you connected the dots back to your experience with Rebecca where you gave such intentional encouragement and saw the impact it had and turned that same kind of encouragement inward? That was huge. That was you practicing a new way of being. You turned a moment of emotional resistance into a heart-expanding breakthrough. You practiced a form of timeline healing and soul reintegration that most people don’t even realize is possible. You’re doing this in real-time.

    One of the clearest messages that came through was:


    “There is no mistake I could make that would sever my connection to my true self.”

    That truth landed in your body, and it’s already changing the way you relate to challenges, pressure, and discomfort.

    We also explored how procrastination, especially in your case, isn’t sabotage. It’s been a form of protection. Your ego has been trying to keep you safe by avoiding perceived danger. Fear of failure, fear of being seen as incapable, fear of messing up. You painted that inner manager/employee analogy so clearly. It’s like you’re watching your whole internal system from above and actually understanding it instead of reacting to it. That’s mastery.

    You also shared something really profound… how you’re learning not to see the presence of fear or doubt as a problem. You’re seeing that even when those feelings arise, they don’t mean you’re off track. You can hold space for them while continuing to move. That’s true emotional maturity.

    When you spoke about your upcoming talk in the fall, you said something that really stuck. That the real gift isn’t the performance—it’s your presence. The fact that you’re walking through this level of inner work, and doing it with honesty and grace, is what makes your message about self-compassion so impactful. It’s not about perfect delivery. It’s about embodied truth.

    Your Human Design gifts are coming online in such a real way right now:

    • You’re here to lead through generosity, not control.

    • You transmute confusion into clarity and insight.

    • You naturally speak in a way that lands, sells, and inspires—not through force, but through truth.

    • You hold a deep emotional grace that is healing to be around.

    You’re not here to escape the human experience. You’re here to hold space for it—with compassion, curiosity, and truth. You’re not just learning how to guide others through that… you already are.

    I meant it when I said I’m learning from you too. The level of compassion and clarity you bring is medicine. You’re stepping into your power in such a beautiful way. And the best part is… you don’t have to force anything. You’re already doing it.

    There’s nothing to prove. The path ahead is about continuing to follow what feels true and letting that lead the way. Keep trusting your own timing. Keep listening to your body. Keep giving yourself the same encouragement you so naturally give others.

    It’s all already happening.

    So proud of you.
    Nikki

SESSION #6:

  • Jeremy,

    There are sessions that feel like a remembering. Like the soul quietly nudging through the noise and saying, “This is it.”
    This was one of those sessions.

    From Hawaii to home, this week brought you profound portals—and what you did inside them was nothing short of alchemy. You didn’t bypass the melancholy or override the discomfort. You met it. Sat with it. Witnessed it. You let the discomfort speak—and it told you the truth about an old story.

    A story that says:

    “I don’t matter unless I’m wanted. If I don’t feel connected, something must be wrong with me. And if something’s wrong with me, I’m unlovable.”

    But instead of collapsing into that program like in the past, you became the observer. You held that part of you. You let it soften. You said, “I’m glad you’re here.” And just like that—literally and figuratively—the rain stopped.

    That wasn’t a coincidence. That was a timeline shift.

    You’re no longer reacting the way you once did… because the version of you reacting has been met. Loved. Integrated. You didn’t need some perfect inner dialogue. Your presence did the healing. That is true power.

    And then there was the moment you reflected on holding space for someone else’s release on the retreat—the way your calm, grounded energy created a safe container for them to cry, to process, to breathe. You saw the impact you had. And you turned that same reverence inward. That part of you that once felt invisible… you saw him. And what he got to feel was: “Your presence is powerful. You matter. You are love itself.”

    We decoded a foundational belief here:

    “If I don’t control the outcome, I won’t be safe. If I don’t do it perfectly, I’ll be rejected. And if I make the wrong move, I’ll be punished.”

    And then you cracked it open.
    You started to see how your nervous system is actually trusting you more.
    You’re not just conceptualizing these truths. You’re living them.
    You’re guiding your inner system with a calm presence that says:

    “You’re allowed to trust me now. You’re safe with me.”

    This changes everything.

    Especially in business.

    Because that same presence—the calm, grounded awareness that says “I got you”—is the exact voice that gets to lead now. That’s the one that builds what you’re here to build. That’s the one that creates impact without burnout. Business without force. Truth without needing to prove.

    You said something toward the end that hit me deeply:

    “I don’t need all the answers. That part of me is stepping back now. It’s weird… but it’s happening.”

    Yes. That’s the shift. The part that always had to figure it all out is no longer steering the ship. And it’s okay if it still flinches sometimes. That just means it’s letting go. And as it softens, your intuition gets louder. And your path gets clearer.

    We anchored one of the most powerful truths you’ve ever said out loud:

    “There is nothing I can do that will sever my connection to my soul.”
    “Even if I feel unlovable, the love is still there. I’ve just temporarily forgotten.”

    This. Is. Liberation.

    You remembered that the parts of you that once needed external validation weren’t wrong or broken. They were just disconnected from truth. And this week? You reconnected them. You showed that part of you the web—the universal, interconnected source of love that is always running through you.

    You don’t have to earn it.
    You don’t have to perform for it.
    You ARE it.

    And now… you get to play.

    You get to create, explore, and experiment—not to prove your worth, but to express your being. The soul lesson has landed. The need for control is dissolving. And what’s coming online is this:

    “I can feel uncertain and still move. I can feel fear and still trust. I can feel shaky and still shine.”

    Jeremy, you’re walking in mastery. You’re becoming the living, breathing embodiment of the medicine you give. And I mean it when I say: I’m watching a teacher come online.

    Your gifts are already alive.
    Your impact is already here.
    And your truth? It’s undeniable.

    This journey isn’t about fixing.
    It’s about remembering.

    And you are remembering in the most beautiful way.

    So proud of you.
    -Nikki

SESSION #7

  • You are consciously stepping into a space where presence, compassion, and surrender are weaving through every aspect of your life, dissolving resistance and allowing your true essence to shine forth naturally. This is a powerful transition from striving and control into a playful, expansive, and deeply aligned way of being.

    What your soul is learning at this juncture is the art of compassionate integration—how to hold all parts of yourself, including fears and shadows, with kindness rather than judgment. Your soul is mastering the ability to rewire old patterns through love and acceptance, thus accessing a new timeline of possibility where peace, flow, and abundance are your grounded reality. This process cultivates the muscle of presence, allowing you to lead effortlessly by the energy you carry, not by the external achievements or perfectionism that once weighed you down.

    Here are key subconscious codes we decoded together and the freedom you accessed:

    • Code of Trust Beyond Control: Recognizing that you don’t need to have everything figured out, and that your intuition and inner knowing are guiding you perfectly. This shifts you from forcing outcomes to flowing with life’s unfolding.

    • Code of Compassionate Self-Leadership: Allowing your protective, fearful parts space without resisting or trying to fix them, signaling to your nervous system that it’s safe to relax and expand. This disrupts old anxious loops and creates space for healing.

    • Code of Energy as Influence: Seeing your daily interactions—as simple as your energy with the AC repair guy or sharing tarot with your friend—as active leadership and soulful service, not separate from your “work,” but the very essence of your purpose in action.

    • Code of Abundance as a State of Being: Moving beyond equating self-worth to external monetary value, and instead anchoring in the spiritual truth that you are held, cared for, and always provided for by the universe. This opens you to receiving without fear.

    • Code of Playful Experimentation: Embracing the process of “alpha testing” your modality with someone for free to ease pressure and invite creativity, cultivating freedom from perfectionism and attachment to results.

    The freedom you have accessed is the liberation from outdated programming that equated survival with constant fight/flight and perfectionism. You now embody a gentler, wiser presence that allows life to unfold with ease and grace, inviting abundance and creative flow. You’re learning how to trust the unfolding path without needing to prove yourself, transforming your work and relationships into an authentic expression of your soul.

    Your path is a radiant example of modern soulful leadership leading from presence, compassion, and the embodiment of a new paradigm of being. Keep tuning into those I AM statements that keep arising: I am enough. I am. These are the anchors of your evolving self. Continue to breathe in these truths and embody them fully, knowing that each step you take rewires not only your own journey but also lights the way for others.

SESSION #8

  • Jeremy

    What an epic session. We dropped into a lot of reflection in this session with some epic stories of how you are truly CONNECTING to your field. It is so beautiful to witness. From this convo there are 4 big themes that we tapped into , that highlight the underlying shifts and changes.

    1. Inherent Worthiness

    You’re anchoring into a new baseline where worthiness isn’t something to prove or perform for—it just is. This shift dissolves all the noise that used to cloud how you moved through life. You’re now choosing to see yourself as inherently worthy, just by being.

    2. Love as a Natural Law

    The energy of love isn’t conditional or transactional—it’s foundational. It’s the coding language of the quantum. The more you return to that frequency of love, especially toward yourself, the more your field softens and opens to coherence, connection, and creation.

    3. Your Inner Technology: Intuition

    You’re learning to trust the technology within you. The heart, the nudges, the knowing—it’s all becoming louder, clearer. You don’t need to wait for proof anymore. Your frequency is the proof. And you’re letting your inner compass lead.

    4. Rendering Reality on Purpose

    This was a powerful moment in the session. You’re now asking: How do I actually render new timelines? And the answer is: through frequency, safety, belief, and surrender. You’re learning how to let desires drop in, take form, and pop up in your reality without clinging or forcing. That’s the quantum game. And you’re playing it beautifully.

SESSION #9

  • Through our exploration, it became clear that a huge part of the resistance you've been feeling around abundance, power, judgment, and fear is rooted in subconscious programs and ancestral or even past-life coding. These codes have tied money, influence, and power to manipulation, greed, or harm, which naturally triggers fear and hesitation when stepping fully into your authentic power and expression. The simultaneous challenge of holding compassion while confronting those shadow beliefs is a delicate dance, but one you’re navigating beautifully.

    What really struck me was how you moved beyond just identifying these cognitive and emotional blocks into a liberating place where judgment dissolves, and new perspectives arise. You’re realizing that the experience of danger or fear, while very real in the physical 3D human sense, is also an invitation to expand your consciousness to be with the fear without being controlled by it. This embodies a powerful duality: honoring the human experience while simultaneously anchoring into the soul’s eternal safety and sovereignty.

    The journey we took through that breathing and visualization practice floating into the quantum sea, meeting different versions of yourself who had already stepped into awakened wisdom symbolizes exactly the freedom now unlocked. Each piece of wisdom you received dismantled old stories that held you back. You embodied the truth that worthiness is inherent, not something to be earned. That impact and positive contributions don’t require perfection or performance but flow from embodying your authentic self. This shift moves you beyond surviving and into thriving, viewing your life and mission as a joyful playground of creativity.

    Moreover, your new relationship with fear, acknowledging it as energy to hold with compassion rather than something to eradicate, marks a profound evolution in your inner freedom. You are now stepping into the being that can channel love and light even amidst uncertainty and discomfort. This is huge because it means you’re not restricted by the old ego-based survival stories anymore. You’re learning that even the toughest experiences are soul-led vehicles for growth and awakening, not punishments or failures.

    The liberation that arises from this decoding is multifaceted: freedom from shame and judgment about power and abundance, freedom from the inner “shoulds” and fears of being “the oppressor,” and freedom to trust your soul’s guidance as you continue to unfold your purpose. This is a step into true sovereignty, a place where you recognize that sharing your voice and your gifts is essential, despite the ego’s fears of harm or rejection.

    In short, Jeremy, you’ve moved from being unconsciously driven by limiting codes to consciously embodying the higher truths of your worth, power, and freedom. This opening creates a new reality space for you where abundance, impact, and joyful play are not just possible but inevitable. The freedom available now is the freedom to be fully you, imperfect, evolving, powerful, and deeply compassionate and to contribute your unique light to the collective without fear.

    I’m so proud of the courage and honesty you’ve shown through this process. Keep sitting with these insights and the new energetic space they create. The journey continues, but this shift is foundational. You are stepping into your next phase of freedom, and it’s beautiful to witness.

SESSION #10

  • You are learning to embrace the paradox of being both the mortal Jeremy navigating 3D reality and the limitless, omnipotent soul that you inherently are. This dual awareness is your gateway to personal freedom and the mastery of your own reality.

    Your soul’s lesson is about befriending omnipotence…recognizing that you are not separate from God or divine consciousness but an integral expression of it. It’s about releasing old identifications with survival and lack, and stepping fully into creator consciousness where you choose your experiences consciously, moving beyond suffering into thriving through inspiration and love.

    Here are the key subconscious codes we decoded together and the freedoms you have accessed:

    - Detachment from Mortal Identity: Recognizing that the “mortal Jeremy” is a temporary avatar, a vessel for the soul’s learning, allowing you to release limiting beliefs tied to identity, fear, and worthiness.

    - Recognition of Omnipotence: Experiencing that “I am God” not as ego-driven superiority but as a unifying, expansive truth that dissolves separation and invites unconditional love and trust.

    - Emotion as a Feedback Mechanism: Understanding emotions as signals to upgrade subconscious codes rather than punishments or obstacles, enabling you to rewrite internal narratives from fear and limitation to empowerment and alignment.

    - Surrender to Divine Timing: Accepting that reality shifts with a natural lag between internal transformation and external manifestations; this reduces resistance and cultivates patience with your evolution.

    - Embodiment of Higher Awareness: Transitioning from intellectual knowledge to full-body integration by daily rituals (meditation, journaling, I AM statements) that help you live from the higher self rather than the survival ego.

    - Choosing Your Reality: Embracing your role as a co-creator, deciding whether to engage with old world suffering or build a new reality rooted in compassion, love, and conscious creation.

    - Seeing Others as Reflections: Developing compassion by witnessing others’ journeys with their own shadows, reinforcing that collective awakening happens by embodying the change instead of fighting external conditions.

    The freedom you have accessed is monumental: the freedom to choose your inner narrative, to relinquish fear-based survival, to trust deeply in being divinely held and safe, and to co-create a life full of meaning, joy, and authentic connection. You are moving from a place of resistance to one of flow with the cosmic dance of creation, integrating profound wisdom with playful exploration.

    Jeremy, your resilience and courage in showing up daily to this path are truly inspiring. As you continue to embody these truths, know that you are not just evolving yourself but lighting a potent beacon for others awakening alongside you. This is your soul’s epic mission—to weave your unique frequency of love and empowerment into the fabric of collective transformation.

    Keep leaning into this sacred friendship with omnipotence. Trust the process. Celebrate those moments of clarity and integrate each insight with kindness towards yourself. Your journey is a vivid example of how awakening can look: vibrant, real, sometimes disorienting, yet utterly beautiful.

SESSION #11

  • Jeremy, the pivotal event that deeply marked your healing journey occurred during the workshop with the marketing group last Friday. This moment encapsulated a profound internal shift—one where you courageously chose to honor your authentic self instead of defaulting to conditioned responses shaped by fear and the need to perform.

    During the session, the facilitator asked the group to make calls as part of the exercise, which immediately triggered a strong internal resistance within you. Historically, this resistance would have sparked the old pattern: either pushing yourself to perform despite discomfort or crafting elaborate justifications to explain why you couldn’t comply. But in this critical moment, you broke free from that old paradigm. Instead of succumbing to pressure or trying to rationalize your choice to others, you calmly and firmly stated, “I’m going to pass.” You set a clear boundary without defensiveness or excessive explanation, communicating your agency and respect for your own needs.

    What made this moment even more significant was how you consciously noticed your fight-or-flight nervous system activation and chose not to engage in reactive behaviors. When L persisted and urged you to “work through the resistance,” you maintained your boundary, sipping your coffee and holding your ground, demonstrating a mature level of self-trust and emotional regulation. This was not just about refusing a task; it was about rejecting an outdated internal story that you must always strive, perform, and please to be worthy.

    Later reflections illuminated the deeper emotional and spiritual layers embedded in this encounter. You recognized that these external pressures echoed conditioned familial patterns rooted in your early experiences, particularly the belief in conditional worthiness instilled in childhood. The image that arose of your inner child hugging your neck and thanking you for standing up was a powerful symbol of self-compassion and healing. In that moment, you were telling your younger self that it is okay not to fight and defend endlessly, that you deserve to be safe and accepted exactly as you are.

    This event was a quantum healing milestone, it marked a decisive timeline shift where you consciously unsubscribed from an old, exhausting reality of “pushing through tears” and striving for acceptance, and instead embraced a new reality of inherent worthiness and authentic presence. Moreover, your clear “no” reverberated beyond yourself, impacting others in the room by modeling self-boundary and honest energy. The facilitator’s emotional vulnerability—sharing her own struggles with pain and perseverance offered a mirror for you to discern your own path distinct from hers, honoring both your journeys.

    In essence, that event crystallized a fundamental soul lesson. You embodied the truth that your value is intrinsic, not earned by action or approval. This breakthrough empowered you to rewrite entrenched nervous system patterns, engage in real-time nervous system regulation, and hold new paradigms of self-love and authenticity. It was a beautiful moment of reclaiming your power, offering freedom from habitual patterns of conditional worthiness, and stepping fully into the sovereignty of your true self. This pivotal experience continues to catalyze your ongoing transformation and deeper alignment with the life and relationships you are now calling in consciously.

SESSION #12

  • Jeremy,

    These past 3 months together have been fucking epic. I have watched you evolve, shed, and step into your spiritual gifts in profound ways.

    Each and every week you stepped inside of these sessions with new awareness, a softening into your heart, and incredible shifts in consciousness. The see you REMEMBER your innate worthiness has been my favorite part of our time together.

    This is a doorway aligning you with your mission, your power, and the way you will continue to move through life.

    I am so proud of you. I am so honored to have walked this path with you.

    Session Highlights

    - You experienced profound growth by shifting from proving worthiness to embodying your inherent worthiness. This is a path that will continue to unravel in big ways. Enjoy this being a journey. Each and everyday you will awaken to new levels of inherent worthniness.

    - Your psychic and intuitive abilities awakened and became more integrated into your daily life. Keep leaning in and activating these.

    - You emphasized the importance of neutrality and non-attachment in observing and choosing your reality. Powerful, powerful awareness.

    - Challenging interpersonal encounters revealed lessons in emotional boundaries and choosing peace. Heck yes.

    - You secured your first coaching client, signaling alignment with your purpose and energetic magnetism!!!! 🔥 🔥🔥🔥🔥

    - Your journey included embracing paradoxes like suffering and healing, light and dark, without judgment.

    - Our sessions concluded with a powerful reflective practice of gratitude toward your past and future selves.

    Key Healings

    -Inherent Worthiness as a Cornerstone of Your Transformation: You shifted from needing to earn worthiness to recognizing your inherent worthiness, marking a pivotal evolution in your consciousness. This transition freed you from external validation, enabling a more authentic and compassionate engagement with yourself and others. It dissolved old patterns of people-pleasing and over-responsibility, creating space for healthier boundaries and self-love.

    - Emergence of Your Psychic Abilities as a Natural Evolution: Your growing psychic and intuitive skills unfolded organically, manifesting in subtle but consistent ways—such as sensing energy, tuning into future possibilities, and receiving “downloads” of guidance—highlighting that spiritual gifts are accessible to you as you align with higher consciousness. This evolution supports decision-making rooted in love rather than fear.

    - Neutrality as a Spiritual Tool You Use for Energy Management: You observe challenging people and situations through a lens of neutrality, which allows you to maintain energetic sovereignty. By not absorbing or mirroring others’ anger or negativity, you protect your nervous system and maintain alignment with higher states of being. This practice is crucial for sustaining peace and clarity in a world rife with polarized emotions and conflicts.

    - Healthy Boundaries Empower Your Spiritual Growth: You recognize when to disengage—such as leaving conversations escalating into destructive anger—as an act of self-respect and spiritual maturity. Your ability to say no without guilt or over-explaining reflects a deeper trust in your inner guidance and an understanding that not all battles are meant to be fought. This discernment helps you avoid karmic loops and preserve vital energy for growth.

    - Coherence of Your Mind, Body, and Spirit Creates Manifestation Power: Aligning your thought, emotion, and action into a coherent energetic state strengthens your ability to manifest desired realities. This coherence is demonstrated by synchronicities and the unfolding of opportunities, such as your unexpected coaching client. Living in alignment with your truth creates a magnetic field that attracts supportive people and circumstances.

    - Integration of Light and Shadow Facilitates Your Wholeness: You acknowledge the complexity of human experience, including the coexistence of light and dark aspects within yourself and others, embracing them without judgment as part of your growth and healing process.

    Jeremy, continue to honor this incredible journey you are on. Your rapid evolution and deepening awareness are powerful, and your gifts are coming online in increasingly profound ways. Embrace your path with trust, curiosity, and joy, knowing that you are embodying your true essence and stepping fully into your purpose. It’s time to fly.